We cocooned you in love, this heart out-pouring, this memory pot-luck. Minutes became hours and hours become days and we forgot if it was morning or afternoon and still you clung to a life that had reduced you to a shadowed corner of the man we will never really let go of.
All you needed was a moment. Did you think it would hurt us too much? You, waiting until your love laid her head down to bed, until we were distracted and laughing over a Canasta table, only then - with the sound of her dream breathing and our silly game giggles, did you finally let our prayers be answered.
We were there within a blink. Saw the closing of your eyes. Woke your love and watched as she caught your final heartbeat - cradled against her palm like a gift that she will forever carry tucked into a pocket of her heart.
The instant peace. The relief. All that struggle wiped clean from your face. And we can breath again.
"Is Gwanpa GiGi in heaven?" Liam's still too young to really understand.
"He's with Jesus," I tell him.
"Weelly?" Noa quips. "Wit De-sus?"
"Yep. What do you think he's doing right now?"
"Eatin' ice cream!" Liam says, grinning and turning back to play like it's the most natural thing in the world.
Sleep well. You will be missed beyond a capacity I have to even understand. Every breath of your goodness has sweetened this world and you leave behind a beautiful legacy of strength and integrity. Thank you for loving me.