It leans towards the west like it knows that's where we came from, pressure-treated wood scarred from a hundred storms and a thousand letters. There is something right about it - about the way it stands guard, here at the end of our beginning - some stoic sentry of blue-grey and stick-on font, red flag worn by weather and after-school fingers.
We've lived here four months now and still this placed is named for Austin. It is the final nod to it's history - that last piece yet to rend from it's past and shine up with our future.
And I am loathe to change it. Cringing against the idea of ripping that name from this sign post and bragging my own - even though the old is still mine somewhere deep inside me. Maybe I'm crazy, but somehow that name makes it feel more like home and I feel an overwhelming need to preserve it in some manner, I just haven't decided how.
So, for now, it waits - like a silver tomb stone marking for the what was and all the good that past stands for.
I think you should leave it. Put Rusnak on the other side. It feels wrong to even me to take it off.
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